it used to be so simple. i was submissive. all i needed to do was cling to an a-frame, look pretty, and moan sweetly.

ok, yes, there's more to it than that. being submissive, surrendering trust and control to another, is not an easy thing to do. it can be emotionally draining. and there are things you need to learn. being conscious of your own physical well-being, are you having circulation problems, breathing difficulties, becoming dehydrated or exhausted, and maintaining communication with your Dom/me, making sure your Dom/me knows what He or She needs to know about what is happening to you.

but it's relatively simple in contrast to all the things a good Dom/me needs to know. how to tie some one up without cutting off circulation or pinching nerves, how to flog someone without risk of injury, etc.

it quite surprised me to discover how much i enjoyed flogging. and now i'm beginning to think that i just might enjoy rope bondage as a top too. have i gone over to the dark side? i don't think so. while i'm enjoying the flogging and curious about rope, i don't really feel any desire to be the one in control, at least not after my partner steps down from the a-frame or is released from the ropes.

giving a flogging is fun. tying someone up is beginning to look more interesting than i thought it would. but nothing, so far, compares to the buzz i get from being the one getting tied up and flogged. i'm not going over to the dark side just yet. it's kinda fun testing the waters, though.