until last night, the chastity thing wasn't a problem. i was tired, sore, and generally unenthusiastic about life, the universe, and everything. it was, for a while, easy not to think about sex.

of course that didn't last.

i'm not sure what changed. i'm still tired, if not quite as sore as i was. still feeling a bit low after the highs of last weekend, but consoling myself by looking forward to next weekend.

whatever the reason, suddenly it's no longer easy to be good. last night was difficult. this morning was worse.

i hope J is feeling generous this weekend!