it is my misfortune to be primarily attracted to dominant women.

ok that's not entirely accurate. i find many submissive women very attractive too. but submissive women want to be dominated. duh! and while i quite enjoy giving a flogging, and think i might rather enjoy tying someone up and sticking needles in them too, should the opportunity arise, those are, for me, temporary diversions. my primary need is to submit.

case in point. recently at a party i flogged a submissive female friend. and it was great, it was a lot of fun, and it was quite erotic. afterwards, she went outside for a smoke. i don't smoke but i went with her - i'm not a flog 'em and leave 'em kinda girl. as she sat smoking, i sat at her feet and she stroked my hair. it wasn't something i planned, wasn't something i decided to do, it just happened. i flog someone and then the switch flips, and i find myself at their feet. i become even more submissive than usual. it's as though a balance has been disturbed and needs to be put right.

but i digress. why do i say it is a misfortune to be primarily attracted to dominant women? because dominant women are rare. very rare. and to compound the issue, it's seems i'm also primarily monogamous. i have tried poly and it has not worked for me. i'm not knocking it if it works for you, but it hasn't worked for me. and unattached dominant women? they're pretty much non-existent.

i'm screwed. and not in a good way.