not sure i can call this 'sub drop'. didn't experience the traditional endorphin high this weekend to come down from. but there was a lot of psychological submission. a lot of teasing, begging, emotional openness and vulnerability. a lot of being the real me, without pretences, barriers, and shields.

and now it's back to the mundane world. back to hiding so much of the real me behind all those phoney pretences and barriers again. back to keeping people at a distance - kind of ironic, when closeness is what i desire so much.